There was this ball. It was blue, red and a little soft. You know, the bean bag kind. The ball was thrown across the table to another student. He stood up, walked to the front of the room, said his 3 to 5 mins speech without any audio or visual aids. The speech was video-ed and he got immediate feedback from the class.
I sat uncomfortably in my seat, not wishing to speak. The ball looped over. It was my turn!
I walked to the front, plagued with self doubt. Not too sure if I knew what to say. The topic which I chose was something I feel keenly for, but do I know enough to captivate the audience for 5 mins? Without any aids?
As I took my position & felt the presence of a “stage”, the fear slipped away. A certain courage & strength took over. A voice rang clear and powerful – was it mine? For 4 mins, I shared stories that until now I felt no one understood. The room listened with apt attention, at times responding with laughter and nods.
As I returned to my seat after the speech, my heart danced. :) There was this joy as I realised… I did my act of courage! I stood for something I believed in, and I stood up for myself. I am truly very thankful for the opportunity.
appreciating nature, the comforting feeling of walking down a path next to a forest, hearing the calls, and watching a frog hop by.
appreciating the neighbours who came together for a mini celebration yesterday, because we all believe in the value of a community garden even if we haven’t figured a clear path to walk forward together yet.
appreciating my team mates at work, for they are stars in their own right, allowing me to focus on things I need to work on
appreciating my friends who are there for me, listening to me whine at times about how hard things can be, not judging & encouraging me to keep going for what I believe in
appreciating my family who support me in their quiet way, actions speaking more than words
appreciating my cousins for continually posting on our Whatsapp channel. reminding me it’s time to re-connect, I have simply been too busy!
appreciating my partner, who supports, encourages, coaches me, does not judge & is there for me when I need him.
appreciate myself for despite feeling low & rather dejected in the last few weeks, for picking myself up again & being able to appreciate things as they are.
appreciate the frog that inspired this post! :)
Happiness is… Mum walking up to me with 2 different types of chillis that are meant for cooking, and saying, “Let’s plant these chillis!” Out came the seedling tray, lit bit of compost, and a lil bit of salt… Not sure what the salt is for, but apparently it helps the seeds to germinate faster :)
There’s a wake at a house very near to my place. Plucked up my courage again, went up to give my condolences to the family. Because I feel it is the right thing to do. But because I have never met them before,even as I stepped up, I didn’t know what to say really, and who to approach.
Somehow I got their attention. The mum appreciated it very much when I said I am a neighbour who lives just down the street. The family later shared with me how the father, who is really still quite young, had passed away suddenly & unexpectedly, and no one really accept that he is gone just like that.
As we talked for over an hour, I sensed that this is a family who care for one another, & the parents worked really hard for the family business. They realised that every moment is really precious, one really cannot foresee when the end will come, and there’s time for work, there’s also time to rest – ultimately, health is key. All the money in the world cannot bring a person back; it is better to live life happily, rest well & be with love ones.
All good reminders really. All of us may know & understand them, but how often do we actually do them? Don’t wait till it’s too late to do what you want to do, or say what you want to say. Because the present is a gift, and the future is never guaranteed.
feeling thankful :) energised by a good coaching session… a good conversation with a neighbour I never met but is really enthusiastic in supporting my dream… cleared quite a few things on my list… appreciating the help I have received from various people in the last few days :)